smiling but we're close to tears [50/52]

sooc except for slight crop. (oh and excuse my major sunburn)

right now i feel like i'm having a huge inner conflict - so here's the photo to show it. my head and heart are saying two different things, although i don't know which is saying which. i can't tell a soul, and those who know can see why. i'm stuck, im trapped. happy where i am..but possibly not as happy as i could be. its not fair on either parties - i can't tell the two people who should, and do, mean the most to me what is going on. because they're the two im breaking down over.

i got on the bus tonight after school and just broke down. i just cried.

please listen to this and this.

***

HOWEVER! i have been tagged by my beautiful flickr friend Bea..

Ten Facts About Me
#1 im having a huge inner conflict with myself right now.
#2 my camera Neville (lumix G3) is one of the most important things in my life, closely followed by my collection of film cameras.
#3 i don't waste my time being nice to people who i dont like: it drains you.
#4 i can be incredibly pessimistic.
#5 i live my life by quotes and lyrics.
#6 music is the soundtrack to my life - i love how it can make us remember something happy or sad, make us cry or laugh, and bring back the best of memories.
#7 i'm so glad i have flickr which i use as my diary to the world.
#8 i hate cheese except on pizza.
#9 i'm saving up for a new lens for Neville but i don't know which one to get.
#10 i wish i could break the mould teenagers are stuck in.

Bucket list: (some completed)
~~#finish a 365 project~~
#finish a 52 week project
#make a film, preferably one which is in black and white, silent, and made to look very old.
#make a career in photography
#complete my GCSE photography project without using a digital camera
#make my photography teacher proud (and like me again)
#live in spain for a year
#travel the world and meet my amazing flickr friends who make my life complete

Taken on: July 11, 2012

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Camera: Panasonic DMC-G3, f/5.0, 1/160 sec, 17mm (=34mm), ISO 160 (more info) (hide info)

Camera:	Panasonic DMC-G3
Aperture:	f/5.0
Exposure Time:	0.006 sec (1/160)
Focal Length:	17mm (35mm equivalent: 34mm)
ISO:	160
Exposure Bias:	0 EV
Flash:	Off, Did not fire
Exposure Program:	Program AE
Exposure Mode:	Auto
Metering Mode:	Multi-segment
White Balance:	Auto
Gain Control:	Low gain up
Color Space:	sRGB
Software:	Adobe Photoshop Elements 10.0 Windows
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